Every day is the same;
Instead of doing the same thing over and again, I want to live a life full of adventure and enjoyable experiences.
But, at my age, when I can't drive or go out on my own, it's difficult. I don't want to bother my parents with requests to hang out with my pals (friends) on a daily basis, but it's difficult to live alone and expect a highly exciting existence right now, especially during a pandemic.
To fill this void, I continuously build alternate realms that I can visit and interact with, much like in magical films or books, and it works wonders. I'm hoping that after the epidemic is gone, I'll be able to enjoy life more because it's becoming monotonous.
I've reached the age where I've realized that this isn't the life for me. The fantasies I'm told are what I want, but I'm unable to realize them since I'm fighting and working hard to get to a decent place in life. Something I never asked for, but had to make the best of isn't bad, but existing in it hurts a lot.
My age it is like a wine waiting for its customers to open it. When the bottle is opened, life starts. Soury, sweet but makes you feel high and addicted. It is hard to drink, slowly but enjoyable, just like it leaves a trace of itself. A trace that you can not forget. My age is an infinite memory.
Today I aged, a new age, a new life, new memories that are waiting for me. I will be in chaos in this age. Waiting, counting the seconds. My hands are open up, patiently praying for goods. In the end I know that I will first make myself proud and then my parents. Thanks to them.
Thanks to them raising a good child, thank you for being there for me, thank you for never letting me go at my lowest point. Thank you for making me live this beautiful life with both of you. I am here because of you.
I am fighting for myself, I am fighting because I have not forgotten old experiences and I am waiting for the moment when I will face the people who made us live this life in the future.
Thanks to old memories for building me. Happy birthday to myself.
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